2011 was quite the year of extremes.... On the negative side of things, I had my dreams crushed, lost my faith in myself again, lost my mother, and started letting people step all over me (albeit in ways they probably didn't think hurt me as much as they did...). On the positive side of things, I started finally getting mature about what I need to do artwise, rallied (for lack of a better term) an intensely amazing small group of 2-3 friends (and one more-than-friend
) which I actually opened myself up to (not all the way, but more than I ever have before), and started feeling better about myself again by contacting people already in the art industry who told me to keep going (which is good considering all the times I considered just giving it up this year.... still am, admittedly).
I learned more than I have any other year, I think, and at least 90% of what I learned I learned through lots and lots of pain. But hey, everything I learned was important, and I know I'll use it to make myself a better person.
Maybe I try to be too grown up. Who knows.
Also, I'm not going to do any commissions/contests/ETC. for this year. The only way you're going to get art from me is if I rally feel like doing random sketches one night, or if I feel like making you a gift. That is it. I will do what I want artwise, or I'm going to lose interest in drawing even more than I already have.
In any case, I'm certainly looking forward to the New Year. It's time to pick myself back up from the floor, dust myself off, and shine even brighter than I ever have before. I'll continue to roll with the punches, but I'll make sure I don't let others step on me for it.
BRING IT, LIFE. I GOT THIS. ONTO 2012.